Saturday, November 29, 2014

I'm an English Teacher

I'm an English teacher, by degree - Don't Hate!  I have a love for writing - I think I
always have.  When I was younger I would write poetry and short stories - as I grew older I enjoyed the process of research and learning - as I earned my degree I loved to teach grammar.  Not so much because I love syntax but because there is a soundness to it.  There are patterns and rules and rights and wrongs.  (few of which I follow in this blog) The English language, although complex, can be easily understood (says an English speaking person).  When it came to teaching, I would  teach grammar over literature any day.  I even volunteered to teach for a friend on maternity leave and teach her 9 week grammar lesson.  Not because I am a saint, but because I like order and it came easily.  Fast forward - 25 years..... I am reminded I LOVE to write.  Not because of the rules and order - but because writing tells a story.  Without words - without expression, without passion, we don't live, we don't share, we don't relate.  A good story can be told again, and again and again.  A good story can bring generations and cultures together.  A good story, much like a good song, (which is a good story with a beat) can create gut wrenching emotion.  God has been showing me over the last year that my story matters, that your story matters - that we all have a story - not a soap opera -- A STORY.   A redemptive story - a story that takes all those characters, and plot lines and sub plots and it culminates with a grand denouement.  We may all have a different beginning, we may all have different characters but we all have an end.  And at the end I want my story, I want your story, to be a story of Grand redemption.  A story with a hero - that rescues us all.  A story that creates a passion beyond, a story that is so far out it has to be true.

A story about a life that was created, to live in a world that was corrupt, to know a baby that grew to give His life so that we may all tell of redemption.   I have a story, you have a story - will you tell of your redemption?  Will you share your story?

My inspiration for story has come from -
@neighborstable -- where dear sweet Sarah brings people together to share and live their stories!

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Redeemed... REdeemed...REDEEMED!

Almost a year ago my husband and I attended a seminar - not the one I thought I was going to but the one I needed to go to - the seminar was Storyline #Storyline #DonaldMiller - I thought it was a writers conference - well it wasn't - it was a storywriter's conference - but the storyline was mine - WAIT - WHAT????? The jest was - we all have a story - we all have turns negative and positive - we all have stories that can be redeemed.   A year ago, OK six months ago, I was not ready, nor willing to go there - I thought I was going to a writers conference.  I thought I was going to learn to write great stories, stories that would WOW the world - stories that would make people say read this!!!  I .... DID... NOT... PLAN... TO ... BE... CONFRONTED... WITH... MY... STORY!!!  -

Here I sit - my story, not really even sure what my story is - not even really sure what I know - not even really sure what I want to know - but this
These are my babes - the bust me, they move me, they break me - everything that I am surges with pride and joy - pain and laughter - there are no words to explain, to discect, to imagine all that is or that will be -

Everything that I was, that I am, that I might be - is shown to me in these beings - oh the pain, the glory, the revelation.  God in HIS goodness shows himself to me - EVERY SINGLE DAY - that I could look on these people and see - that each and every day can be redeemed - no matter what we have been through, no matter where we may go - God can redeem it - He can heal it - He can provide and He will prove His love again and again -

 They bust me, they move me, they break me- they are my story ....... stay tuned!

Sunday, June 22, 2014

My God, My God why hast thou forsaken me?!

Wow - let me just say the last week of my life totally understands this saying -

Where are you God is my cry - where have you been and WHAT is going on???  Are you not in the mode of protecting? Where is that Superhero I need??? My GOD, My God, --- I guess that really is the question - Who or What is my God??   In times of prosperity, or times of content the My God is easy oh so easy.  But in times of trial do I know who My GOD is - or do I desire it all to just be okay? 

Let me tell you friend, I can not be my own God nor can I be yours - but if you know the God of Jacob, the God of Abraham, the God of Elijah - the Father of the Lord Jesus Christ - then in those times of trouble - may you know the peace of - There is purpose you just do not understand.  May you know the joy that comes from knowing HIM - when nothing else is real - May you be aware that there is a greater purpose than any you can create or dream of - My God My God may your love stand firm and your peace be everlasting!

Friday, May 16, 2014

A roll of scotch tape

I want to be the fun mom - I'm trying to say yes more - I'm trying to leave a legacy of JOY - so this morning when my 10 year old asked, "Do we have scotch tape?" I stopped myself from saying, "yes, but you can't use it - don't waste it - it cost money."  I did not say any of these things - instead I found a roll of scotch tape and handed it to him with a smile.  I then had the opportunity to watch him play, create and delight - all because I said YES and handed him a roll of .69 cent scotch tape to do with as he pleased.   How often in our adult lives do we stop ourselves or others from playing, from delighting in the everyday - because we have some preconceived notion of what might be right or can't get past the what ifs?  How many times do we tell ourselves NO - to a vision, a dream, a creative thought - isn't time we started saying YES?  Yes, to the idea - the dream - the creativity.  YES to a roll of scotch tape just to see what comes up - today I say YES.  Now for a trip to Costco to buy tape in bulk.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Are you IN or are you OUT?

In the last several months, meaning last several weeks - this statement has come up for me several times.  I have been in the awesome position, of once again, coaching high school track runners, at the same time have gone through an experiential seminar, at the same time have helped a friend walk through life changing decisions - so the question that keeps arising is ...... are you in or are you out?  When playing poker (as little as I have played)  - I do know that that is the question that is always asked - are you in, or are you out?   How long are you playing the game?  Well, let me tell you friends, should you have asked this question 3, 6, 12 months ago I may have answered I don't know.  But today, today, I know --- I'm in - I'm playing this game to the end --- I'm playing with you to the end of a broken marriage, I'm playing with you to the death of a child, I'm playing with you to a new beginning, I'm playing with you ---- I'm playing....... Why, because God delights - God delights in  new beginnings, God delights in failed newness, God delights and friend so do I.   So do I.   So I play, I'm in - all my chips, I'll I have - no judgement - no knowledge - just the cards in front of me ALL IN - are you ready to play --- I say I'm IN!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Are YOU agreeable?

Over the past 6 months I have had the opportunity to interact with people in Ireland - while making reservations and purchasing an Irish Dance Dress there have been many emails back and forth.  One statement that struck me as humorous on several occasions was the question, "Are you agreeable?".  This was always asked when a price was given or a negotiation was in place.  Every time I read this phrase I was tickled inside - after reading it one more time this morning I began thinking on it and wondering why it stuck with me.  "Are you agreeable?", the phrase we commonly use is, "Is that ok with you?"  I have decided I like "are you agreeable" much better.  The person is not asking is that want you want or are you ok with this, but are you agreeable to it - will you agree and be content with the decision.

Raising teenagers I find myself saying a lot - "Just get along", or "Just do what I ask without arguing" - the tendency for anyone trying to assert their independence is to push through their ideas or "get their way" - I am very familiar with this on a personal level.  But to be agreeable --- now that is something we should all strive for.  To be agreeable does not mean we have to compromise our belief structure or values we hold dear - To be agreeable does not mean we have to give up being independent, in fact I think being agreeable allows me to have more independence and control over my emotions and desires because I can just agree that in a certain situation this scenario will work, and it doesn't have to be my way.  I should repeat, "It doesn't have to be my way".

We learned a lot about each other on our family trip to Ireland - 2 weeks, 5 people and a smart car forces that education.  And we learned we can
be agreeable - some of us tend to be more agreeable than others - but we are working on it and training to be more agreeable.

James 3:17 -But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.

I think this verse in James shows it well - the wisdom From above (God) is agreeable - I desire to be more agreeable - I'm working on that - how about you, "are you agreeable?"

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

How do you leave a legacy?

I was left an amazing legacy - a legacy by parents who walked in faith, in trust, in what they would probably call stumbling destination - but it was and is a good legacy - I learned that Faith and Trust in God results in a life that is lived and not just moved through.  I learned that no matter what the circumstances - it all works out - I learned that you can't give enough to give yourself out - I learned service is more than something you do- its how you live.. I want that legacy - so why? Why do I find myself at the end of the day banging my head against the wall - saying this is not the legacy I want to leave - this is not how I want to be remembered.  Why do I scream at my children when they don't preform in the way I feel is appropriate - why do I nag them to do things differently - Why - mostly because I have not given it all to HIM - to a God that says I will hold you - I will guide you - I will comfort you - I will protect you - I will LOVE you - I will desire you - I will lay down my life for you- I WILL because I AM - the legacy I want to leave begins with the death that is so hard to give - the death of me of who I am and what I think is best - to give to a God in  a way that I says I trust and who knows best - so here I lay it down - my everything and any thing - I want a legacy that SCREAMS ETERNITY - I desire a legacy that says God you are my ALL in ALL no matter the cost - so when my child does something that this world may say Shame on you -I can - grasp with wide open arms and say you - YOU are GOD's Best - I don't nag - I don't badger - I don't shame - I just LOVE in a way that I have been loved - so that this Legacy can carry on....
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